...this was me.
I had a doctors appointment that afternoon and I got to see the doctor I had secretly been wanting to deliver Landry. I still say it to this day that God had excellent timing that day. He knows our fears and our doubts and he knows how to subside them. I was told that my blood pressure was too high and that they were concerned it might start effecting Landry. She said that she was available the next day if we wanted to go ahead and induce me, and she would be the doctor that would deliver me. My fears went away just by her saying this. I talked with Tim and we decided this was as good a time as any to bring our baby into the world. I remember going home and making all my phone calls to let everyone know that we would be having her the next day and then Tim needed to go back to work to take care of a few things before he left for the week. I was by myself for the first time that day. All these thoughts started flooding my mind and all I could think about was seeing her face for the first time and I had a peace settle over me. I cooked dinner but I couldn't eat it. I was so nervous. We watched American Idol and then I took a bath to relax and then left for the hospital. I kissed Angel and told her that when we came home we would be bringing back her baby sister. We held hands the whole way knowing that when we came back to this house our lives would be forever changed. We settled into the room and I immediately fell in love with my nurse. She made me feel so at ease and gave me some medicine to help me sleep. I went to sleep knowing that when I woke up my day would go by so fast, so I prayed that I would remember all the tiny details.
Tomorrow will be a special day in the Smith house. We will have a ONE year old!