"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."-Jeremiah 29:11
I have this verse marked in my bible. I've made it my life verse, words to live by if you will. I send it in texts all the time and I use it as my "quotable verse". I never actually used it on myself until four weeks ago.
My life took a turn not too long ago, and I want to document this time in my life so that I can look back at this little book of mine and remember it fondly.
About three months ago, I started praying for something new in my life. I was working for one of the best companies in America and had never really thought about leaving. Growing up, when anyone would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would say a mom. I had the best example of a mother and I always wanted to be just like her. She was always there for Dani and I and sacrificed a lot for us and never showed us anything but love.
When Landry was born, I knew I wanted to stay home with her but at the time it just wasn't in the cards for us. We couldn't afford it. I knew Got had placed this need on my heart and that one day he would make this possible for us. I just didn't know when.
So, a few months ago I really felt God telling me to move in another direction. I wasn't quite sure what direction that would be but I knew if he was telling me to leave then it was the right direction. So, I put my resume out there and someone from another company contacted me and wanted to interview me.
I was so excited! It was working from home, something I had always wanted to do. I figured this way I could make money for our family but also be there to pick Landry up from school and spend more time with my kiddos. It was going to be the best of both worlds...or so I thought.
I started my new job, and after working for one company for ten years it was strange. I was new to this world and figured it would take me a few weeks to get my feet wet. So, I did the best I could with what I was given. One thing I pride myself on is my work ethic. My dad is one of the hardest workers I know, and my sister and I both got this from him. You give me a job, and it will be done to the best of my abilities.
So, when my new boss called me to meet her over lunch I thought nothing of it. But when I got there I soon discovered my world was about to change...again.
She told me that I wasn't a right fit for the job. That they hated wasting my time like this, but that it just wasn't working out. Huh? What? So, I was fired. Fired. That word stung. It was like I was branded for life. I got in the car and immediately called Tim. I was so worried about his reaction. But, him being the person that he is didn't get upset at all. I was so relieved. Then I called my parents and my sister. And them being the loving family they are didn't care either. They have always been so supportive of me and anything I have wanted to do.
So I put my big girl panties on and went and got my babies and took them to the park. I just needed to be with them and spend time with them. I prayed all afternoon. I just asked God to place something on my heart for me to do. To not let us suffer financially because of this. I was fully prepared to put my resume back out there and find a new job. But then God intervened in the best way.
Tim came home that night and we sat down and he asked me "what do you want to do Kara?" Talk about a loaded question. I knew in my heart what I wanted to do, but didn't think I was going to be able to. Then my husband looked at me and said "you want to stay home don't you?"
And just like that all the pressure was gone.
So, after six years of being a mom I'm finally getting to do what I've always wanted to do. And I'm loving it! I love taking and picking Landry up from school. I love spending lots of time with Hayden. I'm so excited for this summer to come and spending time with friends.
The day after I got fired, my daddy sent me the Jeremiah verse and I cried. After all these years of me sending that verse to people I in return was receiving it. I've learned over this last month that God does answer prayer. It may not be on our time or when we think we need it, but his timing is always perfect.
So, a new chapter is beginning and I can't wait to see where God takes us next!